#21

don't underappreciate what you have
[you so fly]

could you be the most beautiful girl in the world. PRINCE you are ridiculous.

So while I was having my numbing sensation from getting my molars extracted I had some heavy dosages of anthesia.. And ended up having the most wonderful dream in the world of dreams. I don't know, maybe delusional.

Tottally just drooled on this laptop not even noticing it. -curse you numbness!-
but yes. the dream goes like this:

Me and my friend. we'll coll him, "phil". ok, so me and phil are on some unknown rooftop just staring out at the stars (that would be enough right there).. talking about things we normally talk about. Life things. And somehow we make this pact/agreement sort of thing that if we're not married by 25, we'll marry each other.

Diagolue goes a bit like this (talk about being realistic for a dream
"Pinky promise?"
Haha, "pinky promise! i remember those.."
"well you ARE my kindergarten best friend, let's pinky promise"
so we promise.

The scene fades.

We're both 25.
Different cities.
New York scene of me working in my art studio, at my desk, with all these graphitti designs and fabrics and a disco ball in the sky of my loft. You look and on the table theres a portrait of me and some chocolate boy. who i obviously like.

Caiforina scene, he's in his dentist office. just smiling to all his patients.

Somehow both scenes we realize our promise about the whole 25 marry thing.
We meet.
I'm mad for some reason because he's making me give up my chocolate. but then he goes "baby, i got you. i got you"
and somehow, i feel like yeah.. i do have a chocolate but really what i wanted was you. that aha-moment.

scene ends.
we're in this NY penthouse. and these two gorgeous chlldren are just chillin'. the boys dancing away in his lil corner, while the girl's watching basketball. and to me- their the most beautiful children I've ever seen. then i realize their our children. WTF. amazing.

I wasn't really sure how to take this dream. Either 1) i think i like someone or 2) It's not that easy.

I would prefer to say that i think its number 2 because my mind is like a maze, you never know what's going on. Or maybe I'm too lazy to admit that I have no game. HAHA. But here's what I think.. The fact that the stargazing was so intense. The stars were so bright, is sortof analogous to how much I expect to see the "light" of success and something so beautiful in my future. I mean.. honestly, either way. I know I'm heading towards great things.. I expect nothing less from myself.

The fact that it was my kindgarden friend was about how if you like someone, you'll never know what I could be like until you make a step towards saying like "Hey, I dig yo style." But apparently that would require too much effort on my part. But anyways, the point is. Never underappreciate what it is you have in your life. Never, because you never know how one thing could lead to another. You gotta make the most of what you have before you really begin to understand and see things come to pass.

The most beautiful girl in the world - Prince

#20

the only difference between a priceless diamond and a piece of dirt coal is the pressure applied

[beauty in struggle]
sometimes I like having problems, because when I look back on certain "growing moments" in my life, it was always when I had to face some kind of difficulty. when things are dandy, life is beautiful. but what fun is that, if I don't get to learn anything new?

certain situtations in my life make me further appreciate the blessings I have. i mean, ok. yes. i do live in the ghetto. my life is taking a huge turn from choosing what is it i want to do. but in order to accomplish goals, certain sacrifices have to be made.

Kites rise highest against the wind, not with it

As long as I face these struggles, I'll ulimately come out stronger in the end. That's it.

#19

to anybody who doesn't listen to old school music: YA SLEEPIN'!!!


Do you ever get the feeling that whenever you listen to a specific song, you feel yourself completely immersed in three minutes of another world? (Yeah, you have!) This is a dedication to all the old school songs that put a lil' spring in your step, make you believe that true love does exists (oh baby does it feel good), and overall just make you happier in general.

I mean.. look at those big glasses! Afros.. Matching fly attire, as well as dance moves.. What's there not to love? Seriously now, come back to me old school. Give me that good ish!


"Float On- The Floaters"
Just here, relaxing in my yacht while the sun is setting. On the bus, or a bentley. It doesn't matter 'cause either way I'm still holding your hand. New York city hustle.

"Love's Holiday- Earth, Wind, and Fire"
Swimming in the pool. With palm trees.
Writing poetry in Aldrich Park. With a picnic.

"Outstanding- The Gap Band"
It'a sunny day out. But what's even sunnier is the happiness in your eyes. And when I look into them, I feel so alive. Dang, you knock me out. And when we're in a room together, you just cancel out every person in that room. Dang. I'm satisfied.

"LoveFool- Cardigans"

"Footsteps in the Dark- Isley Brothers"

"Tonight is the Night- Betty Wright"

"I'll Be Around- The Spinners"

Float On - The Floaters