#16

amber swag alert:: just having an off day

Never Knowing: I'm Just Trying Where Is this all leading.

Hot Mess
Things to do
But I chose to not do it
Hurting myself even more
And even though I try
I don’t do this right
I don’t have anything that’s right
She has what I want
Why can’t I get it
I don’t like school. A better correction: I don’t like not doing well at school. I feel like I don’t deserve to be here, and I want to start all over again. But when I think about having to do that, I already feel like crying.
When I’m down
Happy and then sad
Your always there
When I feel like everything is wrong
I just listen to you
And it makes me so much happier
Music
I could listen to it all day
Why is it that that’s the only thing that I can do? I don’t want to try anything else? I’m too blessed to be stressed. Worried about things so insignificant when I know in reality, I’ll get through this. How petty of me.
Stop complaining, it’ll get you nowhere. Stop thinking about doing things and start doing them.
Do what you want to do, fucker.
Is that so hard.
Apparently.
Because of what I have to let go.